John Bauer, Leap the Elk |
I have a quilt-square of story to share with you this fine November evening. It fell in to my notebook through my pen a couple of months ago, as I was sitting by the window, watching the UPS truck make its regular stop outside our house, just as the leaves were starting to change. I had this sudden wild dream—what if a UPS truck did not deliver boring boxes ordered from Amazon and whatnot, but instead delivered parcels of a strange and talismanic variety? Not in the way of Santa Claus and his sleigh full of presents, but something far wilder, far weirder, far less materialistic and more concerned with the stories of things, and the journeys of stories, and the things the land beneath a city longs for, but cannot create on its own...
So here I give you the first bit of this tale which I am calling Beatrice and the Mail Truck.... I don't normally share such large amounts of my fiction here, because my fiction is my livelihood, and publication on a personal blog amounts to first publication rights in the eyes of magazines and publishers alike, no matter if it is one's own. But this story seems to want to be delivered right to you, a gift of good old magic in this dark time of the year, when stories are the richest currency. But since this is my livelihood, I have placed a tea-kettle button at the bottom of this page. If you read this and enjoy, do consider dropping even just a dollar into the kettle, to keep me in tea and in pen ink, so to speak. If this feels like a nourishing exchange for all involved, I will continue to post stories from Beatrice's adventures for all to read, probably on a biweekly basis, and create a separate page here for your ease of navigation!
Blessings on your long dark evenings and your gentle autumn mornings, wild ones!
John Bauer |
1.
The Hummingbird
With An Amaranth Throat
Everything else about the
street outside Beatrice’s window looked normal, all except for the big brown
truck that brought packages in the mail. The houses across the way, blue and
white and wood, with clotheslines strung up between and lemons starting to
ripen on the tree that grew in a pot by the sidewalk; the red and purple
poppies at the end of their blooming; the man who walked his beagle at half
past three and always wore striped socks, which Beatrice noticed in flashes at
his ankles, under his pant cuffs like they were a secret—all were in order, all
were as they should be, as they always had been. The trees were losing their
leaves in red and orange and purple across the ground, just like yesterday—a
little early in the season, it was true, but that was because men had come and
dug up the sidewalks and paved new ones, due to the hazards of lumps and bumps
in said sidewalks. They had cut the roots in the process. Beatrice’s father
told her so when she exclaimed that it was fall already in the last week of
August. He had told her that cutting the roots to make the sidewalks had
shocked the trees, and they had started to shed their leaves early. This news
only made Beatrice dislike the cement pavers more than she already had—the
sidewalks had always been a patchwork of veering pieces pushed upward and
cracked from the roots of trees. She liked this. She had always lived in the
old blue house on River Street, the whole eight years of her life, and the
sidewalks had always been crooked. She hated them all smooth and straight.
Despite
her grievances, they looked exactly the same as they had since August. Nothing
amiss about them. But the tortoise-shell cat named Walnut who lived across the
street had stopped his grooming and was standing very still to look at the
brown truck, like it was an enormous bird, and in need of stalking. Beatrice’s
heart caught in her chest. She looked closer too—cats can see ghosts, after all,
and therefore anything of a potentially uncanny nature.
The
brown truck had all the basic appearance of the usual UPS vehicles in size and
shape and color, except for one very obvious detail. It had no lettering of any
kind that she could see. Beatrice reasoned that maybe this truck only had the
UPS logo on one side, the far one? That would explain it. But this did not
satisfy her, particularly because the driver’s compartment did not look like a
mail vehicle at all, but the front seat of a travelling circus. The floor was
wooden. The windows—she blinked— were stained glass (how did he see anything as
he drove?), which, she realized now, was the reason the whole compartment
glowed blue and yellow and red all at once. The driver’s seat was a tall stool
with a velvet cushion, and the wheel appeared to be made of a circular spinal
cord—Beatrice could see the vertebrae.
Walnut
the cat had not moved. The exterior of the truck had about it a slight glow as
well, which might, yes, have been the cider-light of late September, slanting
from across the San Francisco Bay, but there was also something decidedly
unpaintlike about the actual brown hue of the truck’s sides. It had more the
luster of soil—a textured, rich, multi-faceted brown. Beatrice blinked. Then
something stirred in the back of the truck. She saw the flapping of wings
through the doorway which led to the area where all the packages were stored. Then,
a small man emerged with a brown parcel in his hands. Dozens of birds sat on
his arms, his shoulders, his head—finches with red breasts, chickadees and
bushtits, several black phoebes, towhees, one shy hermit thrush with a speckled
chest, even a hummingbird with a glinting throat the color of amaranth. On the
sidewalk, Walnut thrashed his tail and looked ready to spring.
The man himself was not dressed in a brown
mail uniform, nor anything remotely similar. He wore a loose striped shirt, a
vest made of rabbitskin, and a pair of green velveteen trousers tucked into
sturdy walking boots. He was all over the color of an acorn, but his eyes were
very green, and he turned them suddenly toward Beatrice’s window. She jumped.
He was looking right at her, and his eyes were sharper than any cat’s. He took
another step, toward the open door on the side of the truck, where folding steps
led to the ground.
He
gestured toward the package, as if impatient, and even from her bedroom window,
Beatrice could see the faint silhouette of her own name there on the brown
paper. Her stomach jumped, but she couldn’t be sure if the sensation there was fear
or delight. Without considering any further, drawn by something in her heart
far older than her years, Beatrice ran from her bedroom. She had been taught,
of course, not to accept gifts from strangers, and certainly not to climb into
the trucks of unknown persons, especially men, but by the time she had thought
of these things, she was already on the porch stairs, barefoot and panting. She
descended slowly, patting down the flyaway pieces of her hair, smoothing her
red corduroy skirt. The small man regarded her with a thoughtful expression.
The birds on his shoulders had spooked to the various perches of the truck and
peered at her with eyes that were dark and glinting and full of an old, wild language
she had never longed for, nor even know of, before that very moment, as they
fixed her with their gaze. She stood for a moment, startled by the birds and
their eyes and the small man, by the clarity of her name penned there on the
parcel. What was she supposed to do? Announce herself as Beatrice? Reach out
her hands? Snatch it away and run?
“You’re a bit small,” the man said suddenly,
coming to the first stair step down from the driver’s compartment.
“So
are you!” retorted Beatrice without thinking, surprised and blushing as it came
out. What had gotten into her? The sight of that parcel, crisp paper, her name
in lettering as delicate and strange as birdprints in sand—all of it made her
heart singular with longing. She wanted to open that package desperately. It
made her palms itch. The little man smiled a crooked, secretive smile and
tipped his chin down slightly, raising an eyebrow, as if he knew her thoughts. She
noticed that the hummingbird with the amaranth throat was still sitting on his
shoulder. It made an irritated sound, rasping and insistent. Beatrice realized
it was a sound she heard often in the garden, coming from the treetops, but she
had never realized who made it until now. The little bird glared at her like a
strange jewel.
“I’m
sorry to be rude, sir,” Beatrice stammered. She felt a little dizzy—the man’s
face was so layered, so lined, his vest so lustrous and thick, the sun on the
hummingbird’s throat so bright, and all the while he regarded her with eyes at
once kind and biting.
“It
is no matter,” said the little man at last, as if he was satisfied with
something he had discovered, though what he could have discovered only by
staring Beatrice could not fathom. “You may be small but you have spirit, Beatrice.”
He handed her the parcel, and the movement stirred the air with his smell of
bergamot and a hint of freshly dug roots. The parcel was just the right weight
in Beatrice’s hands—heavy but not too heavy, and the shape of a shoebox, though
not as tall. The itching in her palms and fingers turned to a hum, a heat. She
noticed that only her name, Beatrice Fletcher, and not her address, was written
in that script of loop and ancient line. How could it, and he, have found her
without an address?
She
looked up to ask him this, and saw that the man had flitted into the back of
the truck and was returning again with a silver kettle in one hand and two
small cups in the other. The kettle steamed, releasing a rich scent of cinnamon
and chocolate. The man sat on the steps and, holding the kettle at a great
height, poured a dark stream of chocolate into each cup. Then he beckoned for
Beatrice to sit down as well.
“We
must drink to your parcel,” the man said solemnly, handing Beatrice a steaming
cup. It was porcelain, the sort of small cup used in the coffeehouses of an
older world for shots of espresso. A phoenix was painted on the sides in green,
rimmed with vines.
“To
my parcel?” Beatrice clutched the package closer to her breast and, hesitating,
sat down on the lowest step. She took the tiny cup carefully. It burned her
fingers, and she almost dropped it.
“Indeed,”
said the man, and the hummingbird made that sound of scolding again. Beatrice
looked around, wondering suddenly what her mother would think if she were to
look out the window now.
“But
why?” said Beatrice more quietly. “Who sent it to me?”
The
little man laughed, raising his cup to hers with a clink before drinking the
chocolate down in a long swallow. Steam trailed from his nose. Beatrice took a
cautious sip and burned her tongue.
“Oh
my dear child!” the man snorted when he had regained his breath. “Sent? Such
parcels are never sent, Beatrice! They are discovered, and then delivered.”
This
was neither amusing nor informative to Beatrice, as the little man believed it
to be. A trickle of fear hitched along her spine.
“Discovered,”
she said, taking another sip of chocolate. This time it was cool enough not to
burn her, and despite everything around her, she closed her eyes at the rich
river of flavor, the dark musk of the chocolate and the bright embered flavor
of the cinnamon, more delicious than anything she had ever tasted. “But in
order to discover something, it must be a surprise, like a thing you find on
the beach,” she said as she opened her eyes again.
She
started, and the chocolate spilled on her red skirt. She was sitting on the
sidewalk and the brown truck was nowhere to be seen. The porcelain cup fell
from her fingers and shattered on the cement. For a moment, Beatrice thought it
all some terribly beautiful hallucination, or daydream—perhaps mother had made
hot chocolate, and she had been sitting here all along, imagining things as the
sun lengthened along the street…? But then she saw the parcel sitting there,
spattered now with chocolate, her name just as beautifully written as before. A
hummingbird with a throat of amaranth scolded from the fuschias in front of the
house, where he was busily drinking nectar. For a moment he paused and looked
right at her. His throat gleamed.
Beatrice looked around. The world was quiet.
There was no breeze. Inside that stillness she ripped the brown paper from her
parcel, careful not to tear the letters of her name, and untied the string from
around the brown box beneath. Her fingers trembled as she lifted the little
lid, and for a moment she closed her eyes, wanting to savor that feeling of
expectation, that delicious mystery. She opened them. Inside the box was a
small garden spade made all of iron. A red carnelian flanked by two green
polished serpentine stones was set in the handle. The shoveling edge was caked
in dirt. Beatrice’s heart sank.
A
spade? Why had somebody sent her a dirty old garden spade? Or rather, why had
the strange man in the brown truck delivered it to her? She was beginning to
believe once more that he had been a dream; perhaps a friend had left the
parcel on the sidewalk as a joke? Maybe it was Aya, or her brother James, who
lived next door; they were always trying to throw paper airplanes with secret
messages from their window onto her roof.
She
turned and her palm pressed into the shards of the porcelain cup that had
shattered across the sidewalk. One cut through her flesh, making her bleed. She
smelled the chocolate, the cinnamon, and remembered the eyes of those many
birds, looking right into her heart. Walnut the cat was still staring intently
at the place the brown truck had recently been. Beatrice smiled to herself, and
gingerly took the heavy spade from the box. It was cold in her hands.
I know what I saw, she thought, and
so does Walnut. But what on earth am I meant to do with a spade?
Such an evocative visual. I cannot wait until the next instalment! Boil the kettle, my dear.
ReplyDelete/\../\ Niffy
Such a wonderful blog
ReplyDeleteWhat a lovely idea, and lovely beginning!
ReplyDeleteA great story... I had to go and make myself a spicy hot chocolate afterwards and slowly sipped it imagining the wonders that may be in the next installment. I sent a dollar. I would like it to have been more. When more cash spare I shall be purchasing Our Lady of Nettles. It called to me! x
ReplyDeleteSo glad you are all enjoying! More to come... Bless you for the pennies too. Lots of Love, Sylvia. xo
ReplyDeleteYes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes!
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